Where I Am . . . today; going; supposed to be

The past week has been crazy. I have moved every single year since I have been back in MN at least once a year - I think the move count is up to 5; which includes the move to MN. So last night at about 12:30 when Shelly and I finally decide that we are done cleaning, packing our cars, and more that tired, dillusional really - honestly, I think I was seeing things in the elevator at 12:14am, I was so thirsty. I do not think that I have known thirst or can remember the last time I was that thirsty. No worries though because I live in the suburbs of Minneapolis. It’s not like I live in Dunbar where I might have to drive a little to get something. I stopped at four different places before I found a gas station open. Don’t they know that I only move late at night and I get thirsty moving - I need hydration people!!!!!!!!!! Why are you not open??? I was not to be deterred because remember I was dillusional. I would not be denied buying my hydration even though if I had just driven straight to my brother’s house I could’ve gotten water for free but no I needed to pay. Alas success and I could finally go to sleep.

Today I feel a little reflective about my brothers: Craig and Joel. They are both awesome and I respect them both. I love that I’m the baby of the family because as independent as I am when Craig or Joel get protective of me it just makes me feel special and safe.

I love my brother’s sense of humor. I know we are weird but it’s a bonding experience:) We can no longer go through one meal together without one of us saying that the meat is a little dry - even if there is no meat being served. I’m so glad we went to Valleyfair, just the three of us, even though it rained, and I can’t believe the things you guys said on the Tower of Power - unbelievable - I can’t even say what they said - but incredibly funny. It’s one of my favorite memories.

I respect that they both have chosen great wives and have great marriages. It means the world to me when they call me and ask how I am doing. I am a very blessed girl. I have three pretty cool, God-fearing men in my life that love me a lot (ok, the third guy is my dad - just wanted to clarify:).

So Joel and Craig - thanks for growing up:) and being great men that I love and respect.

“We are family. I got all my [brother] and me . . . “

I think over this past year one of the big lessons I have learned is I have to choose to trust God. That may not seem like any earth shattering revelation but honestly, I know I’m supposed to trust God but how many times do I find myself worrying or being anxious about what might or might not happen.

There have been several times over this past year when I have found myself anxious that I have just started to say:

Alicia, you either trust God or you don’t.

How I respond to that statement helps me to just stop for a second and get perspective. God is in control - all the time. So take a deep breath or two and rest in the knowledge that:

#1 God loves me
#2 God is good - always!
#3 Guard your heart

Therefore, remember that I am the clay and He is my great God!